Alone with the Mirror

Last night something strange happened to me.
I got up, went into the bathroom, took a shower, and went back to the room wrapped in the towel, not fully aware of what I was doing.
I dropped the towel and looked at the mirror. Before actually concentrating on my reflection, dozens of images have passed through my mind, quickly.
Classmates, friends, family, movie actresses, photographic models, presenters and even strangers. I was able to see their bodies mentally. All thin. Beautiful. Happy.
Then I focused on myself, carefully observing every detail of my body. And I hated myself. I hated myself for not being like them.
Echoing in my head very distant voices:
– You’re ugly!
– You’re fat!
“No one will ever look at you.”
Then … I woke up with a start and it took me a few seconds to realize that it was only a dream.
And today I make the most important decision of my life: I will be who I am. To those who like me, great. To those who doesn’t like me, I’m sorry.

There are people who, through an emotional disturbance, see themselves as obese, even when they are dangerously thin. To learn more, talk to your parents, teachers or psychologist.

Magui,from Magui’s diary

Daughter of Smoke and Bone

Recently I finished reading the Daughter of Smoke and Bone’s trilogy. You can tell by my 2016 Reading Challenge that I loved them, but I haven’t really talked about them.

WARNING: MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS

For those who don’t know, Daughter of Smoke and Bone is a romance about a girl living on the human world who discovers her past and sees herself in a war between angels and chimeras. Karou, her name, is in fact a chimera herself, with an all human body and she’s in love with an angel. Both dream with a world of peace, as their races extinguish each other.

I had never read a book from Laini Taylor, these were my first and I can tell she’s an amazing writer. She, not only, made a cliche romance that appeal to every young adult and teenager, but she put herself all in those books. We could feel every word she wrote, we can feel empathy with Karou and LIVE Karou’s life as our own. I cried tears of joy every time Karou and Akiva met with each other and showed their love, it also broke my heart every time they ignored their feeling for the sake of duty. I felt so sad for finishing all the books so fast, because now I don’t know how the story went. Laini Taylor left a gap in the story to, maybe someday, write another book.

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Nights of Cake and Puppets (Daughter of Smoke and Bone #2.5) – Laini Taylor

I also read the #2.5 book from the trilogy, Night of Cake and Puppets. It’s just some script from Zuzana (Karou’s best friend) and Mik’s diary (Zuzana’s boyfriend) where they tell the story how they met and how did they started dating. The book is small but it fill us with happiness and love seeing a young shy couple playing hide and seek with some magic involved.
Karou has inspired me to do some artwork that I’ve already started but I’m still having more ideas. I’ll be showing these drawings later on another post about my redbubble account where you can buy my t-shirts.

Laini Taylor is launching a new book series this year, and I can’t wait to read them.

My name is Daniella, and I…. kick and bite

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Email from Jesus

From: Jesus
To: Brave Young People
Subject: I need you
I need you to announce Me to the world. But don’t forget that the testimony speaks louder than words.
Give testimony of this New Life that I’m making germinate in you, and you will see that words will remain.
Your brothers will realize that you are especially happy, and you have a different way of being, living and being with everyone.
So if they ask you what your secret is … tell them about Me.
I know that you will not be ashamed of Me. Because I know the place I have in your life: you can’t live without me. Well, I need you, too. I need Apostles who, in My name, announce the sense of wholeness that life gains, when hearts open to My re-creating presence.
I need disciples who, in My name, bear witness to the joy of Faith, Hope and Love.
I need you…
A strong hug from this Brother:
Jesus

Globalization

“The world is nothing more than a small village where globalization, today ,is not an accident in our lives. It is the change of our own circumstances of life. It’s the way we live now.”
Giddens

AMI funds constitution of the Portugal-Ceylon Foundation in Sri Lanka
Exactly one year after the tsunami, on December 26, Fernando Nobre left for Sri Lanka with two main objectives: to inaugurate the new dormitory of the Orphanage D. Bosco and to formalize the constitution of the Portugal-Ceylon Foundation (“Portugal Ceylon Foundation”).
In Maggona, in the Southwest of the country, where AMI has had a medical team for D. Bosco’s orphanage urgently needed a new dormitory. The 160 children there have received a Christmas gift that might help them to overcome the tragedy that they had lived: new facilities, with dignified conditions, where each one will have its bed and its space, a “luxury” that they hadn’t, until now.
It is recalled that during 2005 and shortly after the tragedy of 26 December 2004, the foundation invested more than 800 thousand euros, of the 2.5 million entrusted to AMI by the Portuguese, to support victims of the tsunami in Sri Lanka and the Andaman and Nicobar Islands in Indian territory.

The UN and the peace maintenance
The United Nations Department of Peacekeeping Operations manages several missions in places as far away as East Timor, Haiti or Western Sahara.
Peacekeeping is a way to help conflict-torn countries create necessary conditions for sustainable peace. The United Nations blue helmets – soldiers and armed forces officers, civilian police officers and civilian personnel from many countries -and observe peace processes initiated in post-conflict situations, assisting former combatants to implement the peace agreements they signed.
The activities of UN peace operations, as they are undertaken on behalf of a 191 Member States, give them a legitimacy and universality. UN peacekeeping operations can open doors that otherwise they would remain closed to peace-building and peace-building efforts, efforts to ensure lasting peace.

My playlist from 2016

My playlist from 2016

Alone – Alan Walker
Happy Violence – Dada Life
Like a Stone – Audioslave
Filthy Pride – Social Repose
Hymn For The Weekend – Coldplay
Perfect Illusion – Lady Gaga
Sucker for Pain – Lil Wayne
My Pet Coelacanth – Deadmau5
The Greatest – Sia
The Signal – BertycoX
Temporary Scar – House South Brothers
Spectre – Alan Walker
Sing me to sleep – Alan Walker
Wake Me Up – Avicii
You Got This – Fedde Le Grand
Booyah – Showtek
The Tempest – Pendulum
Blood Sugar – Pendulum
The Other Side – Pendulum
In for the kill – La Roux
Fade – Alan Walker
Faded – Alan Walker
Clash – Alesso
Runaway (U & I) – Galantis

My favorite albums to listen on 2016 were:

Human – Three Days Grace
Piñata – Karetus
Bubblebath – That Poppy

My 2016 and new year’s resolutions

2016 was a really hard year for me and my family, it was a year with lots of bad things happening that may seem like we are cursed or something, but a year with some joy too.

  • For starters… I lost my scholarship. I did not lost it because of bad grades, I simply lost it because the government thinks I’m rich. My dad is unemployed, my mom owns a small drugstore. For the first 2 years, my mom owning her shop, wasn’t a big deal, because she doesn’t earn much, but in 2015 the law changed that, to all owners, 20% of the sales volume, it’s added to her salary. I’m talking about 20% of sales volume, not 20% of the shop’s profit. And no, my mom does not take that share of sales, because she doesn’t have that much profit. She has a great sales volume because she sells gas, which is expensive, but not that lucrative. So, that’s why I lost my scholarship.
  • My dad’s unemployment fund ended. Luckily it ended right after I finished college, else we would be in debt.
  • We haven’t paid rent for a few months now. Luckily, we pay rent to my grandparents who are nice and understanding. They’re always there to help us with anything, we’re just having a bad year.
  • I’ve been trying for 4 months now to find a job. I know I told you I’ve already find one, but, the company tricked me for 3 months. No job for me. Each leaves me heartbroken for not being able to help my mom and dad with the bills.

Apart from all this good stuff happened too:

  • Portugal won the euro cup
  • I quit smoking
  • I finished college
  • My brother got married
  • I spent a week of vacations in Gerês with my awesome boyfriend

I’m a woman with faith, and I know good days will come, I hope 2017 make it all these curses go away. I never give up on my dreams, I’ll never let my family down, and I’m lucky for having a boyfriend that helps go through all this with a smile.

My New Year’s Resolutions are:

  1. find a job
  2. pay my parent’s debt to my grandparents
  3. read more than 34 books
  4. build my own app
  5. see my blog growing
  6. sell my tshirts
  7. play guitar
  8. go to the gym every week
  9. learn German
  10. get my kitchen remodeled

Thank you all for coming to my blog, I hope you all have a great year.

Deadmau5 W:/2016Album

OMG, Deadmau5 were have you been? I missed you so.

This month was released the 8th album of Deadmau5 called ‘W:/2016Album/’ . A great name, may I say. We all know he has some creative name ideas for his songs and albums that don’t leave anyone indifferent.
What to expect from this album? Well, by the title, we can tell this album it’s all about the digital world and computers. I’ve listened to all the songs, I liked 80% of them, they get into your head in a few seconds, the beats are very strong and nice, this is the great come back of Deadmau5 definitly. In my opinion he has never been so good since 2012 on his >album title goes here< album.

Track listing and my rating on the songs

                   No.   Title                                                    Rating                                               Length


  1. 1. "4ware"                       *****                    8:39
  2. 2. "2448"                        ****                     6:24
  3. 3. "Cat Thruster"                 ***                     5:36
  4. 4. "Deus Ex Machina"              ***                     6:31
  5. 5. "Glish"                        ***                     2:10
  6. 6. "Imaginary Friends"            ***                     7:46
  7. 7. "Let Go" (featuring Grabbitz)  *****                   6:20
  8. 8. "No Problem"                   *****                   6:59
  9. 9. "Snowcone"                    **                      5:15
  10. 10. "Three Pound Chicken Wing"    *****                   6:22
  11. 11."Whelk Then"                  *                       5:39

Digital bonus track

12."Let Go" (extended edit) (featuring Grabbitz)          11:31

I think “Snowcone” was a bad song to choose as first single, It’s a song without any electronic power into it, I think it doesn’t show all the potential that is on this album. “Snowcone” has a hip-hop beat into it, and it would work just fine if Deadmau5 was into hip-hop, but for his fans, isn’t a type of song expected. The second single ‘Let Go’ had a more impact because of the vocals. Although being the only track with it, it doesn’t depreciate the beat created. What I’m saying is that a person won’t go listen to that particular song because of the vocals, but, despite of. The vocals it’s just the cherry on top.

If you haven’t heard the album, he’s free to listen on Spotify, you can always search for it on youtube too. You can follow Deadmau5’s tour dates and news on his website http://live.deadmau5.com/

I’m Daniella, and I kick and bite

raccoon

Letter to Santa Claus – Boss AC

Hello Santa Claus
This is the first time I write to you.
I’m from Lisbon and friends calls me AC
Sorry for the brashness, but I have some requests.
I hope they won’t stay on some shelf forgotten
Since I’ve never asked you for anything
I ask for everything and the conversation is finished.
Maybe you’ll find them extravagant
I wanted you to put judgment on these rulers
Take away their weapons and the warlike will
Else we’re gonna ask you for a new Earth
To the needy homeless homeless man, give him a decent life.
And give him work instead of one more hot soup
And to the poor, and the unemployed
Get him a job where he does not feel exploited
And to the soldier, send him back to his wife
Believe me, that’s what he wants
Go see Africa from close up, do’nt look at the newspapers
Give food to the children, build schools and hospitals
Cure diseases and distribute vaccines
Give little cars to the boys little dolls to the girls
And give them peace and joy
To the elderly alone at home, arrange good company
I know you only offer to well-behaved boys
But some misbehave and you give them closed condominiums
Private jets, imported high-end cars
High salaries, you forget sins to the guilty
Sorry for the little enthusiasm, do not get me wrong
I do not understand how this became a commercial holiday
It seems like it’s an excuse for a year of backsight
And the only thing that matters is if the gifts are all bought
And when Christmas is over, will you leave?
Some people say that you do not exist, who invented you was Coca-Cola
Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone.
If you are Santa Claus, it’s because you are someone’s father.
For me Christmas is anytime, just want
I like to give and do not need excuses to offer
And to finish, without wanting to abuse
Give us Peace and Love, no need to wrap
Much Happiness, health above all else
If you can, give us good grades with little study.
Sorry for the inconvenience and continue with your gifts
Merry Christmas to you, and by the way, lower the rents

Boss AC

The 17 Day Diet

Today I wanna share my experience on following my “The 17 Day Diet” by Dr. Mike.

If you don’t know what “The 17 day diet” by Dr. Mike Moreno is, you’ll now be surprised. I came across with his book last year when I was google for some free ebooks and I downloaded it just for research, one day it could be helpful. I was never fan of doing diet because I am very restraining when it comes to food, I only eat a few things, and usually, not the healthy ones. So, for me, doing diet it’s to be always hungry, but, when I read Dr. Mike’s 17 days diet book I had to try it, because it NOT made me eat things I don’t like. The rules were simple… 17 days without any sugar or carbs, instead, I could eat meat, fruits, yogurts, and vegetables. Also tea, green tea to be precise. In less than 4 weeks I lost 4Kg. I went from 70Kg to 65,5 at some point and then it went stable to 66kg when I stopped the diet. Let me get into more detail.

This diet it’s not for only 17 days… Actually has 3 cycles of 17 days each and then a maintenance diet. The first 17 days are to accelerate the weight loss by cutting all the sugar and carbs. So I stopped eating bread, rice, pasta, potatoes, no sugar on my coffee nor tea. I ate 2 pieces of fruit a day and 2 yogurts. In those first 17 days I only ate meat and soup (without potato on it) for lunch and dinner. It might be hard on the first days to beat the hunger but you have to keep in mind that this is a detoxification process, our body is gonna crave for sugar, and after we deny it for a few days, the hunger for it will go away, you will more energy.

The 2nd cycle of 17 days it allows you to alternate days with carbs and no carbs. On day 1 you can eat a type of light carb for breakfast and another for lunch, but none for the rest of the day, and the next one. This cycle will keep your body from retaining fat because you now lost a significant amount of weight in a few days.

The 3rd cycle allows you to eat carbs everyday in the same manners as the 2nd cycle. And the last one is the maintenance which teaches you how to keep your body in health without you have to go back to diet. I’m not gonna get into more details about this because everything is explained on the book.

Another thing that is asked in the book is to exercise everyday, at least 17 minutes 2 times a day but low afford (at least for the 1st cycle). A walk around town is a great exercise to do.

To keep track of my ingested calories I used the website http://www.fatsecret.com/ . You can insert what you eat in a day and it calculates the amount of calories. You can also see the nutrition info about the products, search some recipes and get in contact with the fatsecret community for support. This also comes with a free app for smartphones.

My average calories ingested per day were 800, this DOES NOT MEAN you have to ONLY ingest 800 calories. A person should ingest 1500 calories per day to lose weight, 2000 calories to maintain and 2500 calories to gain.
The reason I stopped my diet is that I got scared, my body made a prank on me. For those 800 calories a day, and my fast weight loss, my body didn’t ovulate in that week and therefore my period didn’t come, which made me worried.

I really recommend you to download it and read it and then figure out by yourself what this diet can make for you.
This is not sponsor, I just wanna help other people who, like me, wanna lose weight and don’t know how to because don’t want to eat things they don’t like.

My name is Daniella and I kick and bite.

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Christmas (reflexion)

  “With a bag and rod, the old Garrinchas did his best to get close to the land. The need had taken him too far. Begging is a sad office, and begging in Lourosa, even worse. No one gives. Have patience, God will favor you, today I can’t … Therefore, what other option but to widen horizons and reach out to the charity of unknown people, who would at least be ashamed to deny a crust to a man in the middle of a lord’s prayer. Yes, he prayed when he knocked on any door. They liked it … If they had faith in the prayer, that’s another conversation.
And here it came from one more of these pilgrimages, well forgotten, if the world were different. Even though he brought ten pence in his pocket and his saddlebag full, it was already difficult for him to drag his legs. Could have stayed in Loivos, but what! His head was buried in the native manger … And the truth is that neither house nor family expected him. All the heat would be from the furnace of the people, permanently open to poverty. In any case it was always better, to spend the holy night under familiar tiles. The problem was getting there, the mountain never ended and seventy-five years old, it may not seem like it but, was a big load. He had been late on the journey in Feitais. He had gone back to the village, things began to yield, and he forgot the hours. When he got there, it was after four. And, as it was early evening, there was no other way than to go horse-racing, to race against time and against age, with a heart pondering. And worst of all, it was snowing! From the sample it seemed like a slight thing, but what if it changed?
And it fell, the cotton wool! Yes, sir! Beautiful! Fortunately the ‘Lady of Pleasures’ was close. If the joke continued, look, he would sleep in there! What, in fact, was a good-bye at Lourosa’s Christmas night…. He hurried forward, made a merchant’s ear to fatigue, and the rain of petals started. What a great panorama!
With elephant legs and white as a miller, he reached the hermitage of the chapel. He stepped into the porch, leaned his stick against the wall, tucked the bag, shook himself, and only then did he notice that the chapel door was slightly opened
Come on! Bad or less. In case of necessity, he could enter and shelter himself inside. For the time being, the campfire he was about to do had to be out, the worse was finding wood. He left, picked up an armful of gorse, came back, and tried to light them. But they were green and damp. He tried three more times, and three times the same failure. Bad! I’m not spending all the matches. He thought on going to the sacristy to see if he found a piece of paper. He found and thanked Heaven for that help, looked at the altar. Almost invisible in the gloom, with the divine child on her lap, the Mother of God seemed to smile at him.
– Happy Holidays! He wished and smiled, too.
Gladly, he turned and found the procession’s slope tidied up in a corner. And he had another idea. It was an abuse, but patience. At the time of the pilgrimage they would get a new one. After a while the dry wood burned.
Garrinchas was then ready to supper. He took the razor from his pocket, cut a piece of bread and a slice of meat, and sat down. But before the first bite the soul gave him a rebate, and out of consciousness he rose and reached the entrance to the chapel. – Are you served? Mary seemed to smile at him again, and so did the boy. Faced with this welcome, Garrinchas was not in half measures: he entered, went to the altar, took the image and brought it near the fire. “Let’s eat the three of us here. The Lady does of who you are; The little the same; And I, though unworthy, do of St. Joseph.
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Miguel Torga

• What most excited my attention?

• What are the signs of sharing that I identify in the story?

• In my environment, are these signs only lived during the Christmas season?

• What does Christmas mean to other people?

• And do you agree with the way these people live Christmas?